THanks Anurupa...

ok guys!i have been a total,major moron for the past few days for reasons i cant disclose!but even though i have been a major psycho case,turns out my frnds are wackier than me for bearing up with my nonsense n not leaving me alone n sticking to me like parasites when i begged them to leave me in solitude!n THANK GOD they dont listen to me![only in this matter ok!]so they do everything they can to just keep me talking,smsing all nite,calling at odd hours,chatting,leaving 1000s of scraps,also mindless numerous PJs to keep me going!but this one has to be the best n the most special thing anyone has done so far!Anurupa actually wrote a poem to getm e out of my insanity n it actually worked becoz its really touchy,with another touchy letter!so Anurupa,babe,thanks a ton!it worked!i feel a lot better!n i am ready to kick some ass again!ur a darling n i'll keep ur letter n poem with me for years to come,i swear!n i shall post ur poem here n then add another verse to it as my reply to u!so here is wat she wrote:-

To laugh is to risk appearing the fool

To weep is to risk appearing sentimental

To reach out for another is to risk involvement

To expose feelings is to risk exposing your trueself

To place your dreams,Your ideas before someone is to risk their loss

To love is to risk being not loved in return

To live is to risk dying

To hope is to risk despair

To try is to risk failure

but risks should be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing!the person who risks nothing has nothing and is nothing!

i wont forget these words,honestly!touched a special place in my heart pal!

ppl this has to be the best poem in this blog becoz it comes from a gal's heart who selflessly cares for her frnd!anurupa,u have showed the true meaning of friendship,just like the rest of my loony pals, which most of the ppl have forgotten now,and you certainly deserve a special place not only in this blog but also in my heart!

here's wat i wanna tell u:-

Depression makes everything sad

it really makes even the happiest person feel really bad

At this moment one really feels alone

becomes bitter and if its me,turns into a stone

but then again like there is day after every night

Friends come in like Angels to make things right

You didnt care about the cause of the problem

all you cared that i smiled again,asusual being really frank

made it your mission,till again merrily i sang

and all i have to say is "mission accomplished my friend"

The power of your friendship worked,you got my out of the trance

and all i want to tell you is

"thanks thanks thanks"

alright i knw this ones silly but hey i still love u babes!youmake my world shine bright!

seriously guys,u have to admit,when it comes to having good frnds i am the luckiest person alive!

The Reason Is You

well i know its been long since i have written something but last night if i hadn't expressed this on paper i swear I'd have gone mad!this is for someone who came really close to me despite me trying to keep him away!i guess my will power isn't as strong as his!nevertheless things happened last night n we may never speak to each other again,actually i wont be able to speak to him after everything that happened!so this is actually what i wanted to tell him but i couldn't because i have poor communication skills!so this is for u, The Gay Guy,i hope we never meet again,u may think I'll forget u but u touched a part of my heart which makes it impossible for me to forget u,But it also makes it impossible for me to see u or talk to u!u were rite, saying something is easier than doing it actually!my feelings did get the better of me.......so i wish u well kishori!take care!this is for u:-

The reason I smiled again, was you
The reason sun shined again for me, was you
The reason I cared again, was you
The reason I dared again, was you
The reason I forgot my past, was you
The reason I moved on, was you
The reason I felt alive again, was you
The reason I felt free again, was you
The reason I was bold again, was you
The reason I was confident enough to try again, was you
My morning started with you,
My day ended with you,
My strength was you,
To some extent my weakness was also you
But now,
The reason I am weak again, is you
The reason I am wounded again, is you
The reason I am injured again, is you
The reason I cry again, is you
The reason I am silent again, is you
The reason I am numb again, is you
The reason I am into myself again, is you
The reason I write after days, is only you
The wound hurts and the pain is too much
But I still stand by what I said,
That is even after all this I am still happy for you!

-Priyanka Dutt (29.10.08)

Money money money

Haha this is a snap of my favorite bank.my sweet cash bank.gifted to me by captain jack sparrow himself.you savy mate?ARGH......!

Experiment

was just trying out my new phn's features!found that i can post snaps i take directly from my phn!cool huh!

A Way Back into Love

I have been lonely for so long
Ever since I learnt what’s right from wrong
Sitting here, writing this song
Trying to find a way to move on

I have been waiting for the stars to shine
Waiting for someone to come and say “you’re mine”
Hoping the moon would shed some light
And help me through the night

I need someone for inspiration
Need to get rid of this confusion
I am looking for a direction
You can give me your suggestions

I’ve hidden my dreams away
Wonder whether I’ll ever need them someday
I’ve been telling myself, I’m fine
All this while, searching for some kind of a sign

But now I know what I have to do
Yes, I want to spend the rest of my life with you.
If I open myself to you, will you help me start over again?
And promise to be with me till the end?

I want to start fresh and new
With no one else but you
All I need to make it through is your love
So help me find a way back into love…!!

-Priyanka Dutt

7.9.08

A Game Called-Life

i know i know i took a really long time to write again but well better late than never!sorry about the delay!wasnt getting any strong emotion to write about!so here is my new work i hope u all like it! here is goes:-

Deep into the night I often wake up
To see the clouds pass by
As the world sleeps and dreams
I sit by my window and write

I see the waves rise in the ocean and then disappear
Just like my spirit which surfaces
And then drowns in tears
As the anger within remains silent for years

Now I see the moon coming out from its hiding
Filling the Dark streets with its light
Shining in its full glory
And then shying away again from everyone’s sight

The winter breeze, which now is my old friend
Is back again to Play with my hair, and give me company
As I sit here, enjoying the silence
Waiting for the long cold night to end

Wish I could fly away as well with these southern birds,
Start a new world of my own, where I can thrive
Yes I want to run far away
From this ugly mess called LIFE

But that will never happen no matter how much I try
I have a dream in my eyes,
A dream which I want to fulfill.
And no matter how hard things get
I know, for this dream to come true, I have to fight

Life is unfair, I know it is
Everything isn’t always right
Broken, destroyed, challenged again and again
Been tested by time in all its might

It’s like a never ending game for me
and I am determined never to give up and fall
My weakness turns into my strength
And my dream helps me to move on

-Priyanka Dutt
19.8.08

Understanding LOVE

i thought i knew what love is,
but i guess i was wrong,
it isn't like the fairy tales
it isn't always like a happy song!

there's fighting,drama,depression n trauma,
there is sacrifices,guilt,obsession n even pain,
its just a world filled with dilemma,
to see the sunshine u have to face the storm n the rain!

but overcoming all this together,
just by talking n being there for each other,
when she understands him
and he understands her

and even after all this when You're,
looking into each others eyes,
loosing yourself there while the time flies,
knowing each others thoughts before words combine,
its when u both know where your heart truly lies,

only then,yes only then you realize
what true love actually feels like..................