Friday, February 13, 2009

Haunted



I’m haunted by a feeling
A feeling that doesn’t leave
It brings me pain & tears
Won’t go away, even if I plead

I sit alone and loose myself
Remembering all the times we spent
And my eyes swell up with tears till the brim
Knowing exactly why this is how I felt

Now I am getting closer to you
Than I ever thought,
The memories of happiness hurt more now
It pains more than the times we fought

Finally the time is here when we have to part
You have to leave and carry on
Meet new people and forget your past
But I don’t think I am ready yet, I can’t move on

I don’t want you to go
But I can’t even let it show
I can’t fight what I can’t see
Those memories still haunt me
I’m tired of hiding & pretending I am fine
But baby, I’m sore, I can’t fight this feeling anymore………

It hurts so much to see you
With someone other than me,
But your smile is like a pain relief
Your happiness is all that matters to me

It burns me up inside
When you say I should be with someone else,
It fills me up with silent rage
I am yours forever and I don’t want anyone else

Why can’t you see it?
Is it too hard to understand?
I’ll scream my lungs out and express myself
Will you still live in denial?

I don’t want your arms around someone else
But I know I can’t stop you
I know you’ll leave today or tomorrow
My love is not strong enough to stop you

Maybe you don’t care, but I do;
So much to smile and hide my feelings for you
And watch you walk away with your heart content
I’ll wince in pain, yet I won’t stop you

I’m in enough pain, my heart is broken
Shattered into tiny pieces
I’ve accepted my future with you no more
But let me cry today and ease myself
Coz baby I can’t fight these feelings anymore……..



-Priyanka Dutt
(13.2.09)

9 comments:

rasmas911 said...

look i dnt know exactly wht was happened wid u………...but i know that when u love some1 and takay na palay ki hoay and how much painful …….....becs 3 year ago i alredy ai faze ta katiaychi……….but okanay amar story ta deferent chilo …………2 years …….we love each others like crazy.......... and she also love me……...but she never understood my feelings………ai 2 years ay ki hoay chilo i wont tell u ……. becs still now okay ami respect kori and okay down kortay chai na ……… but i dnt love her now………… and ami oi situation takay overcome koray gachi …………karon kichu ta amar will power and frnd der help ay ………….4 to 5 days agay ami tomar profile and blog pori and tomar ideal match ta poray i propose u……. and i thought jodi ami tomakay tomar past takay overcome kortay pari then u can understand my feelings ………...becs sabai chay at lest some1 who understands well and who cares about me more than anything……….(ur ideal match)...........but 2day tomar blog ay new post ta dakay aktai katha bolbo………." fariyaad kar nay say rab mil jata hai to ay pyaar kay hai"………so dnt lose ur hope……….i wish 1day u ll get ur love back ..and amar best wishes roihlo……. and remember me as a friend who is always there for you and never let you down………..just give me a call……….

Pranky said...

oh goddammit not u again!dude i AM NOT INTERESTED SO PLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS LET ME BE!

rasmas911 said...

"Hazaro khushiyan kam hai
ek gham bhulanay kay liay......
Par ek gam kafi hai
zindagi bhar rulanay kay liay......"


Khushiyan Aur Gham Saihti Hai
Phir Bhi Ye Chupp Rehti Hai
Abh Tak Kisi Ne Na Jaana
Zindagi Kya Kehti Hai
Apni Kabhi, To Kabhi Ajnabi
Aansoon Kabhi, To Kabhi Hai Hansee

Dariya Kabhi, To Kabhi Tishnagi
Lagti Hai Ye To
Khushiyan Aur Gham Saihti Hai
Phir Bhi Ye Chupp Rehti Hai
Abh Tak Kisi Ne Na Jaana
Zindagi Kya Kehti Hai...
Khamoshiyoon Ki Dheemi Sadaa Hai
Ye Zindagi To, Rab Ki Dua Hai
Chu Ke Kisi Ne Isko, Dekha Kabhi Na
Aihsaas Ki Hai Khushboo, Meheki Hawa Hai

Khushiyan Aur Gham Saihti Hai
Phir Bhi Ye Chupp Rehti Hai
Abh Tak Kisi Ne Na Jaana
Zindagi Kya Kehti Hai...
Ahaa Aa Aa Aa
Umm Hmm Umm Umm...
Mann Se Kaho Tum, Mann Ki Suno Tum
Mann Meet Koi, Mann Ka Chuno Tum
Kuch Bhi Kahegi Duniya
Duniya Ki Chodo
Palkon Mein Sajke Jhil Mil
Sapnay Bunoo Tum

Khushiyan Aur Gham Saihti Hai
Phir Bhi Ye Chupp Rehti Hai
Abh Tak Kisi Ne Na Jaana
Zindagi Kya Kehti Hai
Apni Kabhi, To Kabhi Ajnabi
Aansoon Kabhi, To Kabhi Hai Hansee
Dariya Kabhi, To Kabhi Tishnagi
Lagti Hai Ye To
Khushiyan Aur Gham Saihti Hai
Phir Bhi Ye Chupp Rehti Hai
Abh Tak Kisi Ne Na Jaana
Zindagi Kya Kehti Hai...

rasmas911 said...

priyanka this my last msg 2 you .......... ur answer will decide ami ar msg korbo ki korbo na............just tell me 1 thing do u love me........???? and amar jono tomar 1% oh feelings nai ..honestly say plz ...... just say yes or no ......... if ur answer iz "YES" then i ll promise ill never break ur heart and kono din charay jabo na and i can show u how much i love u....(monay hobay love ar agay sab boys ra same bolay)....... and if ur answer iz "NO" ill promise never ever msg u agn and disturb u...... take ur time 2 answer me..... ur answer will decide everything......... and remember 1thing i dnt care abt ur past... i trust u ............. and I LOVE U LOT...........reply me plz

rasmas911 said...

if i truly love u i promise.................

rasmas911 said...

4 last time at least reply me whts ur answer........ ok.. orkut ay unable 2 scrap u

rasmas911 said...

hey priyanka how r u.....??? and stop dng this at lest reply me plz whts ur answer......... and ur answer will decide ill msg u or not....so plz.... i promise if i truly love i do....orkut ay scrap kortay parchi na bolay comment ay liklam.... kay janay amay tumi koto gulo report abuse koraycho orkut ay .... plz plz 4 last time reply me ...plz plz

Pranky said...

my answer is no no no no no and for the last time NO!I AM NOT INTERESTED IN U!I DONT LOVE U FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!STOP BUGGING ME BEFORE I BLOCK U FROM MY BLOG!

Renegade said...

wow sis.....i can feel every word carryin a wave of thoughts...thoughts dat weep, smile through tears, n most importantly, try to reach out throuh a haze....
keep up d terrific work sis!

@ rasmas...LOL!!!! i was rofl-ing wen i read ur comments mate!! here's 2 bucks, buy a life! :D